The wearin’ o the Grin … er … Green

Just enjoying a Fairly nice day alone with my fur babies.  The sun is out, the yard is a doggy mud bath and I get to work on my writings and art with no one to bother me … at least until tomorrow if the hubster decides to come home early! And yes, I do enjoy St. Pattie’s day, even though it is the celebration of a man to rid Ireland of the Druids. I just take the day as an excuse to veg and enjoy snacks and movies. No harm in that is there? I am not celebrating what the guy did, nor the guy himself, just the fun of wearing green and having a day to myself to party. Just have a wonderful day OK?

How to handle a man … (sung to the song “How to handle a Woman” from Camelot!)

The song from Camelot fits for men too.  Mine is currently being in a woe is me persona! He really doesn’t want to go to see his son (he has never had a good relationship with him or any of his cubs) and is looking for sympathy so he says he isn’t feeling good so I say take your time. His come back? “It works and it doesn’t” then goes on to explain “I feel like every moment I am not doing things it means I probably won’t get them done because I will probably be too sick or dead!” every time I reassure him he gets worse with the attitude, so I take the line for the song “You just love him, love him, love him…” Anyone else with this problem?

Feeling disconnected …

I know that this comes and goes, especially for those of us who have dealt with depression and the like. This is one of those times for me. The weather is finally changing to warm (though I have heard it might get cold with possible snow showers later this week), and I have gone outside and soaked up the sun’s warmth. I feel though that I am walking in a fog, like I really am looking into a fishbowl which is my life.

I think that it may be that things are still up in the air for me and it seems that a lot of my so called friends and family are hoping it will fall through. (My mother made it slip that they blame me for loosing the house and not the circumstances surrounding it.  Go figure. They won’t tell me to my face, they will just dis me and not listen to what really happened.  Just like my cousin who ruined our car because he said I lied about sending my uncle the titles to the trailer and car. He never apologized when my uncle said he got them.) What they don’t realize is that I NEED this.  The schooling, being away from home and family, being in another world that is not the norm for here or me. Yes, I have my uppers now, though until I get the partials in the next couple of months, I will be having a balance problem with them. I start back to work at the city museum and gift shop at the end of May, (though again I enjoy the work, I have problems with being around people) and I have still to hear about the schooling and apartment.  It is a lot to think about and have hanging over head. I plan to take the math accuplacer test at the end of this month and I get my last MMR shot in a couple of weeks. I want this all to fall into place but know that it may not.  If I don’t do this I feel that I will never get to know what I could have done or been.

Rant of the day YAHOO mail!

Yahoo added a set of videos that come up every time you email inbox, spam etc. is cleared out. I use to be able to click on it to get rid of it. I don’t like nor care for their videos in the email because it has nothing to do with emails.  Now when I click on it it not only doesn’t stop, but it repeats itself. This is not my choice it is theirs, and when you try to let them know you don’t want it, you can’t because they won’t let you complain, even to the community or on FB! HOW DO I GET RID OF THIS!!!!! URG!!!!