Must be passing fall and going straight into winter. I heard that the black hills were getting their first snow. We got an rain, wind and lightning storm which hit a couple of transformers leaving us in the dark from 6 – 9 this evening. Boy, what a mess. Had to pull out the camping propane stove so I could finish dinner … which we gave last rites since it ended up overcooked and no sauce. Oh well, will try again next month.
Snow started 2 days ago. My mom was not happy we were headed down for the dental apts. We took Kotah with us & left Sadie with mom. I would say this is the first honest snow Kotah has been in. At first he was not happy not sure he liked it, until Sadie showed that she liked it … I think we created a snow monster! We end up staying outside LONGER in the evening while @ the hotel than normal.
Now it is time to sleep … IF we can find room!
It is December already and only one snow fall! Sure it has lasted almost a week, but the temps are heading back to the low 50’s! I know this has happened before in the area’s history (even the unrecorded one) so don’t start pulling the “Global warming” card on me. I am just saying that I moved here because of the cooler weather and snow. But what do I know about it? It is just a part of the season’s happenings and I WAS hoping we would get snow on both the 14th and 21st! Sigh … Just another crazy day in paradise.
There are times when one has to think … Is this all worth it? Not trying to be cynical or even glib, but this is one of those days in the holiday season when I have to wonder why I am doing anything for the season. Now don’t get me wrong, I happen to like decorating, festive music and the like but when ideas fall short and money is super non existent and family doesn’t even try but expect you to carry the brunt of everything I ask you … Is it all worth it?!?!?!
With a heavy sigh I have to utter these horrifying words “Well, I made it through Christmas!” Now don’t get me wrong, I love the season winter with Yule, Christmas, decorations, music and snow. The problem is that this year I couldn’t get it together! Everything fell a bit flat. I wanted to bake, looked at the stove and felt like heaving! THIS IS NOT ME! I tell myself and try to force the issue. Problem is that in a way, it was me. I don’t know if it was a lack of a support system, my son not even caring to help by decorating our house and his grandmas. Maybe it was the fact that my husband was miserable driving 200+ miles a day just to pay off bills. I just can’t seem to figure it out! I did (finally) get my birthday tree and decorated it. I even decorated the huge window in white cascading icicle lights and LED bulbs.
Then Hubster asked for me to decorate the bedroom. Which I did and he “SEEMED” to really appreciate it. Then there were the cards. I was late getting those out as well! I felt like I was drowning in the season rather than enjoying it.
Now we hope for the fresh, new year!
Despite my best efforts I can’t get into the spirit of things. I seemed to help my husband and friends, but for me? No way! I feel rushed, stretched, exhausted and down right moody. For me this year it is just another day. I do have many gifts bought and been playing the music and DVD’s of the season, but even they have fallen flat. My cards won’t be sent out til after Christmas and my baking also won’t be done til then. I am putting on a “happy” face for the sake of my family and friends. Just wish this year it didn’t feel so … not worth the effort!
As usual I find myself falling behind with everyone wanting me to do one thing or the other then changing their minds when I come to help (eye roll please … ) Still, when it is all said and done and the holidays draw to a close I shall miss them. The beautiful displays of the creche, lights, ornaments … music (even if it IS Christian must, it is still beautiful) the food and the snow (yes, I am a snow freak. I love it even though I was born and raised in California! I hate the desert! WAY TOO HOT!) So I will continue to work on the cards and hope to send them out Friday at the latest, finish the baking and wrapping then plop down on the bed or in the hot bath and sip sangria in hopes I will calm down enough to enjoy the rest of the season! CHEERS!
Quiet days, cold winds blow, ice cycles hanging from cars houses and trees. It is cold and those who do feel it run about bundled in layers upon layers of material. The rest of us watch in bewilderment as we sip cold drinks wear fall clothes and tennies. The cold doesn’t bother us because we have adapted while others fear the change of weather, the cold.
I was just shanghaied by my hubster. He came down the stairs and announced that this would “probably the last Christmas for Gidget and I …” Which lead to the inevitable “I really want an old fashioned Christmas. Now don’t get me wrong, I like Christmas even though I am Pagan. It is just that every year at this time he begs me to get creative and decorate the house. Now I get a tree every year on or around my birthday, even though they are getting harder and harder to find on under $100! I also can’t seem to find any decent non commercial decorations in any of the stores which are not geared towards Disney, drinking, hunting or rodeo. I mean what happened to the places which sold the old fashioned European blown glass ornaments? Come on guys! Rifle shells as ornaments? And the politically correct black Santas and Nativity scenes! No thanks. I think I will start using this as my preparation posts. What I need is a place which carries things such as cranberry, holly and pine wreaths/garland, Popcorn to string, ice sickle lights and other things such as this. I will post my ideas and maybe (hopefully) get ideas of where and what to get for doing up a small farm house on a VERY thin/small budget. Color scheme, warm reds, greens, gold, silver and plaids. Throws would be nice as well as tapestries by that currently is out of the picture due to costs. (to be continues…)
As the year rushes to a close (again) I have come to the conclusion that we are relying too much on technology, and the clock. We have become a slave to time and technology and because of this we become too wrapped up in these things and let them rule our lives. I also seem to see that with the upcoming holidays as well. All three tend to stress us out without us realizing it. We become wrapped up in presents, decorations, fancy clothes/parties. We want to emulate those who have money and yet no matter how hard we strive to reach that perfection we find ourselves no closer and full of stress. When we get stressed, our reaction is to eat, binge, cry a lot and want to pull our hair out. We gain weight we do not need, and tension we can do without. I know. I don’t work in the business world, so I don’t have a steady income which may or may not rid me of some of that stress. I also have let go of some of the technology, or rather refuse it. Time? I hope that I am trying not to get wound up in the hectic world ruled by time and it’s restraints. I know that I am trying hard to become more comfortable in the world without being trapped by its hooks of having to do something by a certain time. I am trying to get my crafts out to those who might be looking for something different and yet not be tied down by the need for deadlines and money. It may never work out, or maybe it might. My wish for all you who read this is that your can find your ground and not be caught in the web which tightens its grip around us all and tries to get us hooked on all these things which stress us out and make us ill.