Snow started 2 days ago. My mom was not happy we were headed down for the dental apts. We took Kotah with us & left Sadie with mom. I would say this is the first honest snow Kotah has been in. At first he was not happy not sure he liked it, until Sadie showed that she liked it … I think we created a snow monster! We end up staying outside LONGER in the evening while @ the hotel than normal.
It is December already and only one snow fall! Sure it has lasted almost a week, but the temps are heading back to the low 50’s! I know this has happened before in the area’s history (even the unrecorded one) so don’t start pulling the “Global warming” card on me. I am just saying that I moved here because of the cooler weather and snow. But what do I know about it? It is just a part of the season’s happenings and I WAS hoping we would get snow on both the 14th and 21st! Sigh … Just another crazy day in paradise.
There are times when one has to think … Is this all worth it? Not trying to be cynical or even glib, but this is one of those days in the holiday season when I have to wonder why I am doing anything for the season. Now don’t get me wrong, I happen to like decorating, festive music and the like but when ideas fall short and money is super non existent and family doesn’t even try but expect you to carry the brunt of everything I ask you … Is it all worth it?!?!?!
With a heavy sigh I have to utter these horrifying words “Well, I made it through Christmas!” Now don’t get me wrong, I love the season winter with Yule, Christmas, decorations, music and snow. The problem is that this year I couldn’t get it together! Everything fell a bit flat. I wanted to bake, looked at the stove and felt like heaving! THIS IS NOT ME! I tell myself and try to force the issue. Problem is that in a way, it was me. I don’t know if it was a lack of a support system, my son not even caring to help by decorating our house and his grandmas. Maybe it was the fact that my husband was miserable driving 200+ miles a day just to pay off bills. I just can’t seem to figure it out! I did (finally) get my birthday tree and decorated it. I even decorated the huge window in white cascading icicle lights and LED bulbs.
Then Hubster asked for me to decorate the bedroom. Which I did and he “SEEMED” to really appreciate it. Then there were the cards. I was late getting those out as well! I felt like I was drowning in the season rather than enjoying it.
Despite my best efforts I can’t get into the spirit of things. I seemed to help my husband and friends, but for me? No way! I feel rushed, stretched, exhausted and down right moody. For me this year it is just another day. I do have many gifts bought and been playing the music and DVD’s of the season, but even they have fallen flat. My cards won’t be sent out til after Christmas and my baking also won’t be done til then. I am putting on a “happy” face for the sake of my family and friends. Just wish this year it didn’t feel so … not worth the effort!
As usual I find myself falling behind with everyone wanting me to do one thing or the other then changing their minds when I come to help (eye roll please … ) Still, when it is all said and done and the holidays draw to a close I shall miss them. The beautiful displays of the creche, lights, ornaments … music (even if it IS Christian must, it is still beautiful) the food and the snow (yes, I am a snow freak. I love it even though I was born and raised in California! I hate the desert! WAY TOO HOT!) So I will continue to work on the cards and hope to send them out Friday at the latest, finish the baking and wrapping then plop down on the bed or in the hot bath and sip sangria in hopes I will calm down enough to enjoy the rest of the season! CHEERS!
Quiet days, cold winds blow, ice cycles hanging from cars houses and trees. It is cold and those who do feel it run about bundled in layers upon layers of material. The rest of us watch in bewilderment as we sip cold drinks wear fall clothes and tennies. The cold doesn’t bother us because we have adapted while others fear the change of weather, the cold.