I know I should get things done today and tomorrow, but I am having issues. My stomach is really acting up and I am (again) having trouble sleeping. I know I should be digging out my paints, reeds or the like, but every time I think about it something pops its head out and I find myself having to do things I did not plan on. I know I should tell visitors “no” and take the proverbial phone off the hook, but that isn’t always as effective as one might think. I have a neighbor down the block who always shows up unannounced for coffee (wither or not it is ready or I am in the middle of projects. A lady who always wants me to go for coffee with her and my other work that the hubster keeps piling up for me to do. Boy, I could use a wine cooler right about now! One wild berry mix please! Any way, I do hope your days/evenings are doing better than mine lately!
I know that this comes and goes, especially for those of us who have dealt with depression and the like. This is one of those times for me. The weather is finally changing to warm (though I have heard it might get cold with possible snow showers later this week), and I have gone outside and soaked up the sun’s warmth. I feel though that I am walking in a fog, like I really am looking into a fishbowl which is my life.
I think that it may be that things are still up in the air for me and it seems that a lot of my so called friends and family are hoping it will fall through. (My mother made it slip that they blame me for loosing the house and not the circumstances surrounding it. Go figure. They won’t tell me to my face, they will just dis me and not listen to what really happened. Just like my cousin who ruined our car because he said I lied about sending my uncle the titles to the trailer and car. He never apologized when my uncle said he got them.) What they don’t realize is that I NEED this. The schooling, being away from home and family, being in another world that is not the norm for here or me. Yes, I have my uppers now, though until I get the partials in the next couple of months, I will be having a balance problem with them. I start back to work at the city museum and gift shop at the end of May, (though again I enjoy the work, I have problems with being around people) and I have still to hear about the schooling and apartment. It is a lot to think about and have hanging over head. I plan to take the math accuplacer test at the end of this month and I get my last MMR shot in a couple of weeks. I want this all to fall into place but know that it may not. If I don’t do this I feel that I will never get to know what I could have done or been.
I ordered a Sour Dough Starter kit with a small crock. This will be the second time I have attempted to work with this substance. This time I hope for success. Will let you know in a few days if it works. I am hoping that it will work. Not sure what to do with the extra starter once I go through the procedure. I says I can give it away, but I think I don’t know enough people to do so.
I want this to work. It is one of the few bread activities which I have failed at . This, hopefully will get me another product to actually work with for sale. A wee bit nervous so keep our fingers crossed my friends. I am starting it tonight.
Well, the hubster is on the bus on his way to Michigan. I will have two weeks of “me time” where I can actually start reorganizing MY stuff in peace. I even got to go out of town to an actual mall and bought myself some new sleeveless tees, a nice blouse, leggings, two fun hats and a back pack style purse I can use when I go back and forth to work. I have to pick him up on the 27th so I can once again go shopping. It will be nice. Hope you all make time for yourselves as well. Have a fun week!