This morning I made a decision, one I kind of made last night, that no matter who doesn’t like it, I am going to live my life. Not on the terms of others who think I am kind of nuts, nor of those who think I am well and am putting up a fake front. I know my body and what I can’t take when it comes to medication and I know that I don’t like my life spread around for all to take in. I am not a people person, of that I really know. Sure I am loving and caring, but to that industry I can not go. So I have decided that a hermit’s life if for me (at least 300 days of the year) so I can work the way I want, with no more controlling people or piers.
What ever happened to the days when people went out of their way to be friendly and helpful, when customers could contact someone in person or by phone if there was a problem, where sellers didn’t treat you like you had a disease and actually knew that you are the one paying for THEIR services and product rather than believing that they are “God’s gift” and you should worship the ground they walked on! Just saying. I ordered a CD for my Art studio containing the contents of 36 books. It was suppose to have arrived no later than the 24th. It is now the 28th, so I went to the contact seller place and guess what! No contact information just vague questions and answers. I am a business woman and would be sure to keep in contact with my clients ESPECIALLY if there were a problem. This is my rant for the week.
I know, I know! Another rundown of what is happening this week. Choice #1: Working this summer: Good? I get out the house a few days a week and am paying off bills I would not have been able to do otherwise. Bad? It is effecting my health. I am getting less and less enamored with working out in the public. It is dragging me down and I am feeling depressed and stressed. Even my pills aren’t working, and I am NOT going to increase them again for all the gold in the world! They are starting to put me into a sleepwalker state when I take them (too strong). Choice#2: The basket weaving … I am going to enjoy it … Will bring in funds … Don’t have to interact with people … The jury is still out on the bad!Choice #3 The new phone: Sure it is simple … NOT! I can’t set up individual ring tones … Doesn’t have some of the neat stuff my old phone had, and it is bigger than I wanted! Good? It doesn’t ring on its own and actually works like it is suppose to.
Anyway, I just found out I have to go out a half hour earlier to be around people today due to the Park’s 85th Birthday party. So sorry about the post. Not feeling up to this, but I am doing it for a dear friend. Have a great day!
Those of you who have a Kindle should relate to this …. I was looking for something fun to use on my Kindle when I take bus rides to the bigger cities (usually between 1 – 3 hours depending on where we go.) and I ran across a tarot app and a runes app. Both are free for the basics. I ran 3 readings on myself on two separate days. Just a three card/rune set up. No particular question, just a general all around reading to see what happened. All six told me that I was having conflicts, and things holding me back. They were right on the mark that I have been having doubts and questions about my choice continue working my summer job. I mean I don’t make much yet when I start working my husband’s medical gets cut. Even with the job we can’t afford the $175 ever two weeks for his puffer, so instead of getting ahead, it shoots us backwards to where I am further behind on paying off debt and such. So I made up my mind to change a few things.
1. I won’t be working next year at the park. Sure it is only 2 – 3 days a week and gets me out of the house, but it isn’t worth it.
2. I am not doing the job rehab thing. Sure it would be nice to get out of the house and actually earn some spending money, but lets face it. Those programs will not take someone in their late 50’s early 60’s seriously when it comes to learning a new trade or upgrading old skills! PLUS I can’t be working while I am training nor would I be making any money!
3. I will go back to my crafts and choose one (or two) that I can perfect at home and start selling over the internet and at shows in larger cities. My problem is which to settle on so I won’t get bored with just the one (or two) things!
After coming to this conclusion, I did another reading on both the cards and runes. Guess what it said! Basically that with patience and once I narrow my choices, I am on the right path and that I need to focus on that choice! How is that for a just for fun reading! Hope you all have a great week!
Actually all the women in my family. The women in my family are from pioneer stock, with good strong values and sense of worth. They thought by example and were willing to answer questions if you had any. They held and comforted you when you were hurt or sad. They supported you when you needed it. They were not politically correct nor did they need equality because they worked side by side by men and women alike. They took no nonsense off those fools who felt sorry for them or wanted them to change. They would smile and politely decline the foolishness of those who labeled everything as male or female. I salute them all on this Mother’s day! I love them all!
I was so happy that the election was over. No more hatred spewed on the hearsay of others … NOT ! There is a line to be drawn in the sand, do it another way! Yes, I rant, but it is to get something off my chest, not to do a long standing grudge against a man who knows more about foreign policy and business than carrier politicians! He is enforcing laws already on the books, not sending everyone back who has stayed within the letter of the law. Those who are here illegally should either do the right thing and go through the process of becoming legal, not just saying because I am a poor little refugee that I have a right to come here without going through the proper channels. The LAWS are clear. Those who blame him for enforcing those laws and say they want to leave because he got elected and is doing the enforcing should not let the door hit them on the way out. I am sorry for this outburst, but I am getting tired of all the rhetoric which should be over and done with. Yes, you have a right to YOUR opinion but it should be an INFORMED opinion, not just spreading stuff that is what a preschooler would spread!
I have (maybe) a chance to go back to college and follow a dream of mine. There are two problems with this … Well, maybe more than two…. In the Dakotas or at least where I live, jobs are few and far between. Not to say there is not a need for trade skills such as nursing, electrical, construction and farm labor, but on my end the four I have listed I can not do or rather have problems with. Nursing. I use to do in home care and helping those who were in the nursing homes. Problem here? I tend to develop gastrial/intestinal problems when working with people who are ill (well, to be honest when I work around people in general). Electrical/construction. What some people find a twinge when touching anything electric, I find it hits me like a ton of bricks, and construction, my knees are bad, I don’t do well with heights and I can’t lift/carry anything over 35 lbs. 50 lbs max as long as it is a saddle or dog kibbles. Farm labor? I am a 55+ year old white female. I still fight to find anyone who will hire me because I am neither male nor Hispanic. So I choose a duel course in CAD-CAM and computer programing… I am not being told that no one is hiring in those areas where I live (big whoop! As if anyone would hire me anyway in this town) and I have to work in a big city because I have to work at the boss’s won’t hire independent contractors due to the fact they want to keep the work as their own (As if I want to keep what I do for someone else!) so I am told that this is not for me. Problem is I have no interest in any other courses, and the guy I have been working with is less than enthusiastic plus hasn’t gotten back to me due to sever health issues! I am signed up with the college, but not sure if it will happen… decisions, decisions! Not sure what to do next… Just saying.