Feeling disconnected …

I know that this comes and goes, especially for those of us who have dealt with depression and the like. This is one of those times for me. The weather is finally changing to warm (though I have heard it might get cold with possible snow showers later this week), and I have gone outside and soaked up the sun’s warmth. I feel though that I am walking in a fog, like I really am looking into a fishbowl which is my life.

I think that it may be that things are still up in the air for me and it seems that a lot of my so called friends and family are hoping it will fall through. (My mother made it slip that they blame me for loosing the house and not the circumstances surrounding it.  Go figure. They won’t tell me to my face, they will just dis me and not listen to what really happened.  Just like my cousin who ruined our car because he said I lied about sending my uncle the titles to the trailer and car. He never apologized when my uncle said he got them.) What they don’t realize is that I NEED this.  The schooling, being away from home and family, being in another world that is not the norm for here or me. Yes, I have my uppers now, though until I get the partials in the next couple of months, I will be having a balance problem with them. I start back to work at the city museum and gift shop at the end of May, (though again I enjoy the work, I have problems with being around people) and I have still to hear about the schooling and apartment.  It is a lot to think about and have hanging over head. I plan to take the math accuplacer test at the end of this month and I get my last MMR shot in a couple of weeks. I want this all to fall into place but know that it may not.  If I don’t do this I feel that I will never get to know what I could have done or been.

When did this become a board to air hatred?

I was so happy that the election was over. No more hatred spewed on the hearsay of others … NOT There is a line to be drawn in the sand, do it another way!  Yes, I rant, but it is to get something off my chest, not to do a long standing grudge against a man who knows more about foreign policy and business than carrier politicians!  He is enforcing laws already on the books, not sending everyone back who has stayed within the letter of the law.  Those who are here illegally should either do the right thing and go through the process of becoming legal, not just saying because I am a poor little refugee that I have a right to come here without going through the proper channels.  The LAWS are clear. Those who blame him for enforcing those laws and say they want to leave because he got elected and is doing the enforcing should not let the door hit them on the way out.  I am sorry for this outburst, but I am getting tired of all the rhetoric which should be over and done with. Yes, you have a right to YOUR opinion but it should be an INFORMED opinion, not just spreading stuff that is what a preschooler would spread!

Pipe line truth or dare!

I happen to be Cree, and I also have happened to do my research on the pipe line and what is happening in N. Dakota.

  1. The pipe line is not on Indian land.
  2. There are 5 other pipe lines which date back to the late 1800’s which are probably more apt to leak and cause more damage than what is currently being installed.
  3. Those who are postdating this are like the scabbers who were brought into the area to disrupt negotiations with union reps.back during the time of Taft.
  4. If they were so worried about this why did they wait until all the LEGAL permits were issued  They were invited to talk about their concerns but never showed.
  5. Those who are protesting are thug and have caused more harm to those who live and work the lands of N. Dakota as well as disrupting traffic and causing harm to those not even involved.

Sure we have a right to demonstrate or voice our protests, but in a peaceful way. I know I may not be popular with my opinions, but I state things as I see them and in this case once I have done the research. It saddens me that we have become so reliant on the idea that government should care for us and that we should make people pay for the crimes of those who the current population had no control over. I say we should cut the apron strings and start taking responsibility for our own lives and our own actions. PC only weakens us and relying on those to tell us what to do when we know it is NOT the right thing also undermines our welfare and  our lives.  Get rid of those who are telling us that violence is right. And get rid of those who threaten this country by paying thugs and people from other states to do their dirty work and claim it is for the good of the Native Americans. THAT is a down right lie!  To get rid of the pipeline will also make us vulnerable to those who control the oil in other countries. Let’s get over this crap and get back to living our lives without violence.

FINALLY the debates are coming to an end!

I am so glad that voting is on the 8th of this next month.  I have found that the Democrats are pulling out all the stops to slander Trump. I know they will do it for ANY non carrier politician who wants to pull this country up by its boot straps and actually make us strong again. I find it funny that Hillery is slamming him for past indiscretions with women and saying how hateful he is of them. Funny thing, IF she were christian there is a quote out of the bible from the new testament. Jesus came across people who accused a woman of adultery and were preparing to stone her. He said “Let he who is WITHOUT SIN cast the first stone.” I challenge Hillery and her fellow Democrats with that statement. After all her husband was doing the same thing as President and was trying to hide it by shutting down those women who wanted to testify against him. Now she is calling Trump the male version of tramp and HE HAS NOT SAID A WORD about her husband nor any of the other male politicians who have and are doing the same thing and have not been kicked out of office. So let’s just drop these accusations claiming that this is a stipulation for being dropped from politics and actually concentrate on what this country needs! LESS GOVERNMENT INTERFERENCE, LESS SPENDING, and KEEPING OUR RIGHTS IN TACT! I am a woman and an not a fan of Hillery, her want to take away our rights and leaving us open for invasion like her predecessor has been doing!

Wonderful, wonderful, critical people

I have found lately that the more people seem to be coming out of the woodwork to criticize what others think or write. If you make a comment that is against some “minority group’s” comment you are labeled a hater of that group. When you state something that comes up in studies which a religious group seems to think puts their heroic leader in a bad light, you are labeled stupid or ignorant. And if you make some comment about what you have found, there are those who make a comment that they won’t make a comment and them proceed to write a long dissertation as to why they aren’t leaving a comment and how wrong you are (again) to put down their hero. When I post, it is to put forth my comments/opinions/observations. I don’t expect people to either agree or disagree with me. If I want a reply/observation/opinion I do ask. Currently I have people on this place, twitter and a couple other places who all they do is post “hate” messages and give no real reasonable conversation about what I post. I may not happen to agree, but I try to hold a constructive conversation. Problem is these people seem bent on not reading all the way through and call me untruthful, a bigot, and ignorant. Why is it people don’t seem to want to have a civil/constructive conversation. This I am posting out of exasperation since on of the posters seems to think waiting over a month or more will change the outcome and my mind.

 

“M” day

Well, tomorrow is it. My son is going to move to another town (over 3 hours away) to go to college. My hubster is taking him down so Thurs. he can settle into his apartment and get the feel of the area before Monday when he starts his classes.  Scary that at 26 he has finally decided on a set of courses and is starting a new life. All his life he has had either his grandmother or us within a 5 – 10 min. drive if there was a problem. Now he is officially going to be on his own. I pray he has the strength and courage to take on this challenge to better his life.  I know we will miss him as he starts college. I know that mom is already missing him because she cried today. He will be on his own in a life changing situation. I am hoping for the best for him on his “M” day!

Reality vrs SCRIPTED reality

Normally I keep as far away from politics as possible … However … With all the mudslinging lately I would like to make some small observations. Hillery. Sure, she is a woman and EVENTUALLY we should have a woman in the white house, but not her. I don’t trust her so NO, I would not vote for her. The thing is I would not want another politician in the white house. As for Trump, he makes mistakes. So what? He admits it! People say he takes pleasure in saying “you’re fired” and targets women. First off they are siting a “REALITY SHOW” which is an oxymoron since the shows are geared towards this. They are SCRIPTED! I watched them and most of the women on there were clueless to start with. If it had been Evona Trump doing this no one would think twice! Come on people, if it doesn’t work out there is something called Impeachment! USE IT! The only reason you didn’t do it for the current Pres. is because he kept pulling the racist/bigot card when we wanted to get rid of him and we like little sheep cowed down to him. We hired him, and if he doesn’t do the job, FIRE HIM!