Bundle of lousy falls in heaps!

Ever hear the term “If it rains it pours” and “Feast or famine?” Well, these terms have been running through my life lately.  First, my son gets ill and doesn’t tell us then has to drop his classes and retake them on his own. Then the “newest car” we got last year we’ve been pouring money into it like it has holes in it! The latest charge? over $400 to replace the power steering. It is costing us more to rebuild it than we paid for it!!!

Feeling kind of low about this since my hubster got a case of the gray clouds once he got the latest charges. Just needed to blow this out so I don’t get as far down as he is feeling. So my newest term for the same ideas is “Bundle of lousy falls in heaps” … How’s that for a name!

Feeling disconnected …

I know that this comes and goes, especially for those of us who have dealt with depression and the like. This is one of those times for me. The weather is finally changing to warm (though I have heard it might get cold with possible snow showers later this week), and I have gone outside and soaked up the sun’s warmth. I feel though that I am walking in a fog, like I really am looking into a fishbowl which is my life.

I think that it may be that things are still up in the air for me and it seems that a lot of my so called friends and family are hoping it will fall through. (My mother made it slip that they blame me for loosing the house and not the circumstances surrounding it.  Go figure. They won’t tell me to my face, they will just dis me and not listen to what really happened.  Just like my cousin who ruined our car because he said I lied about sending my uncle the titles to the trailer and car. He never apologized when my uncle said he got them.) What they don’t realize is that I NEED this.  The schooling, being away from home and family, being in another world that is not the norm for here or me. Yes, I have my uppers now, though until I get the partials in the next couple of months, I will be having a balance problem with them. I start back to work at the city museum and gift shop at the end of May, (though again I enjoy the work, I have problems with being around people) and I have still to hear about the schooling and apartment.  It is a lot to think about and have hanging over head. I plan to take the math accuplacer test at the end of this month and I get my last MMR shot in a couple of weeks. I want this all to fall into place but know that it may not.  If I don’t do this I feel that I will never get to know what I could have done or been.

Rant of the day YAHOO mail!

Yahoo added a set of videos that come up every time you email inbox, spam etc. is cleared out. I use to be able to click on it to get rid of it. I don’t like nor care for their videos in the email because it has nothing to do with emails.  Now when I click on it it not only doesn’t stop, but it repeats itself. This is not my choice it is theirs, and when you try to let them know you don’t want it, you can’t because they won’t let you complain, even to the community or on FB! HOW DO I GET RID OF THIS!!!!! URG!!!!

When did this become a board to air hatred?

I was so happy that the election was over. No more hatred spewed on the hearsay of others … NOT There is a line to be drawn in the sand, do it another way!  Yes, I rant, but it is to get something off my chest, not to do a long standing grudge against a man who knows more about foreign policy and business than carrier politicians!  He is enforcing laws already on the books, not sending everyone back who has stayed within the letter of the law.  Those who are here illegally should either do the right thing and go through the process of becoming legal, not just saying because I am a poor little refugee that I have a right to come here without going through the proper channels.  The LAWS are clear. Those who blame him for enforcing those laws and say they want to leave because he got elected and is doing the enforcing should not let the door hit them on the way out.  I am sorry for this outburst, but I am getting tired of all the rhetoric which should be over and done with. Yes, you have a right to YOUR opinion but it should be an INFORMED opinion, not just spreading stuff that is what a preschooler would spread!

School daze …

I have (maybe) a chance to go back to college and follow a dream of mine.  There are two problems with this … Well, maybe more than two….  In the Dakotas or at least where I live, jobs are few and far between. Not to say there is not a need for trade skills such as nursing, electrical, construction and farm labor, but on my end the four I have listed I can not do or rather have problems with.  Nursing. I use to do in home care and helping those who were in the nursing homes. Problem here?  I tend to develop gastrial/intestinal problems when working with people who are ill (well, to be honest when I work around people in general). Electrical/construction. What some people find a twinge when touching anything electric, I find it hits me like a ton of bricks, and construction, my knees are bad, I don’t do well with heights and I can’t lift/carry anything over 35 lbs. 50 lbs max as long as it is a saddle or dog kibbles.  Farm labor? I am a 55+ year old white female. I still fight to find anyone who will hire me because I am neither male nor Hispanic.  So I choose a duel course in CAD-CAM and computer programing…  I am not being told that no one is hiring in those areas where I live (big whoop! As if anyone would hire me anyway in this town) and I have to work in a big city because I have to work at the boss’s won’t hire independent contractors due to the fact they want to keep the work as their own (As if I want to keep what I do for someone else!) so I am told that this is not for me. Problem is I have no interest in any other courses, and the guy I have been working with is less than enthusiastic plus hasn’t gotten back to me due to sever health issues!  I am signed up with the college, but not sure if it will happen… decisions, decisions! Not sure what to do next… Just saying.

Blues ~ The end of summer …

The summer is winding down and we will soon be closing the park down for the fall/winter season. At least the museum and gift shop part of the park. Next week my husband takes our son down to Rapid to set him up in his apartment and then the next Monday he starts his classes. I have another dental apt. the week of the 22nd so at least I will see him after he starts school before going home. He has not really been on his own for over a week and then he was not far from his grandmother’s house. Not sure how she will take it either. Not really happy about the distance even though at the same time I know this will be good for him. After Labor day I will be concentrating on my hand sketched Christmas cards and Jewelry sets which I am hoping to sell at the fall/winter(?) fair this year. Plus I have to set up all the cards I send out to family and friends as well! Didn’t get the chance to get all the Christmas stuff done while I had money coming in but hopefully my art studio will give me inspiration to actually get stuff done to sell! Anyway, hope your summer was great and will continue blogging til (at least) the end of 2016!

Observations of people and behavior

I often wonder if people realize why some people NEED to talk in detail or (as some people who are not so tolerant) go off on a tangent. I have experienced this myself. When someone gets excited and want to actually talk in detail some people curtail what they are saying. Usually the person  is excited about the subject so they get very excited and want to share that joy with those they are talking to, and/or they are being kept from flourishing by those who seem to believe they need to be micro-managed and kept away from those who can help them flourish.
It seems that those who do this to the excited person tend to be those who want to be in the lime-light or be the center of attention and are not even aware they are doing this. If they are aware, they tend to believe that they need to keep the other person in check and punish them if they step out of line. The punishment usually includes telling the person they talk too much, they are including too much information, they are stupid and shouldn’t open their mouth because they have no idea what they are talking about.
Sad that people are so sure that certain people should never open their mouth (usually due to gender or fear that the person who wants talk will take the attention away from them because they are as or more intelligent than them.)
Unfortunately, this is predominate in small towns or areas where women are considered eye candy only. Plus those who micro-manage them surround themselves with others of like mind and/or use BS and smooth talking to convince others they are right and the object of their concern are nuts or evil. Sad no one but those who go or have gone through this themselves can spot it.