We had our first official frost a few days ago. The leaves are finally turning and starting to fall. Kotah and the squirrel are having a “Love/Hate” relationship going. The squirrel will wait until Kotah is an inch away than he (she?) will run with that inch always between them. When the squirrel is up on the roof or in the tree he/she mocks Kotah who sits under the tree mouthing off.
I decided that I needed to get rid of much of my items from before moving to the Dakotas. It is taking a lot of time, going through and weeding out what I will keep and what I am ridding myself of. Next week I will start one of my first official baskets since the museum shut down for the season … and it is not one of the ones the hubster wants me to work on.
My shop is almost ship-shape. Still need to go through the files and rearrange them to suit my own quarkiness. I even have a set of shelves to house my craft books and display some of my finished baskets! Now if I can get people around here to understand I don’t need to be in public to sell my items!
This morning I made a decision, one I kind of made last night, that no matter who doesn’t like it, I am going to live my life. Not on the terms of others who think I am kind of nuts, nor of those who think I am well and am putting up a fake front. I know my body and what I can’t take when it comes to medication and I know that I don’t like my life spread around for all to take in. I am not a people person, of that I really know. Sure I am loving and caring, but to that industry I can not go. So I have decided that a hermit’s life if for me (at least 300 days of the year) so I can work the way I want, with no more controlling people or piers.
Well, since the museum closed I am actually getting things done I have been wanting to do. I did a bit of fall decorating in the house and my shop (I moved my alter out here so I can have some “quiet time” with my deities.) You could say I was doing spring cleaning in the fall. I have shredded 5 bags of papers and receipts what were way out of date as well as going through my files and clothes. I set a goal of getting these done by October so I can start working on my crafts and getting ready for the spring festivals.
I actually started counseling, though the way they conduct it is rather not what I would call patient/doctor privilege since they are passing me back and forth between two doctors. NOT HAPPY about that. My husband said they may be trying to get me “over” my mental problems so I can go back to work. I know it will never happen so I wonder why I am bothering with all this superficial BS. I have ordered my coffees that I sell at the Christmas fairs so if I do go (which I don’t think I will this year) I will have inventory to sell. Anyway, that is what is happening today. Hope you all had a great Mabon (At least those of you who celebrate that is). Til next time…
It seems that this season summer has gone by too quickly and yet slower than molasses! I have not enjoyed working this year. It has become very stressful and I would rather not be around people as much as the museum requires. I have become less enamored with people as the years pass by. I just came back from the doctor who has switched out my meds for something which he says should help a bit more. I hope it helps, but I hold no expectations and only hope for some improvement. I find that I look forward to labor day more because I can actually start concentrating on my baskets and other crafts which I hope to perfect and eventually sell. With the weather lately, I would love to see some autumn coolness, colors and smells filling the air. It will be a form of inspiration in a way!
I am sure that the term “best laid plans … ” will come into play as we finish off the last few weeks of summer. My plans are as follows, 1. working on the baskets 2. doing paperwork (IE any catch up I may or may not need to do) 3. go through my clothes and getting rid of those which I don’t need or want. 4. go through all the food stuffs which are outdated and I can not eat. 5. general crafts and clean up.
Well, there is the update for the summer. Hope you all are doing great and thank you for following my posts.
Funny how one forgets the foolishness of youth! I DON’T drink, yet I do keep a couple wine coolers back for company (IE Mom). Those have been in my cupboard for over1 1/2 years now. I was so keyed up yesterday that instead of taking a 1/3 of a cup with Ice, I drank down a whole bottle. Needless to say I woke up with a migraine, an upset stomach and cotton mouth.
I swore that I would never overindulge again, yet I ignored that promise and paid the piper for it. So today will be a slow day since I have to drive my son home from Rapid tomorrow which means early down and no hangovers. Chores will help (laundry, baskets, and a few other things) keep me occupied. Some gal called me up and asked if I had time to go over some items and I flat out said this was one of my “Bad days” instead of saying “hangover.”
I do have good and bad days, usually brought on by stress and being around people. This year seems to be more stressful than most. I need to work to pay off some bills which are hanging over me (no help for hubster there) plus I promised my friend. Not next year though! I am having issues with the whole being in public thing again. Just wish I could handle it better, then I wouldn’t need the wine coolers for a crutch to get me wound down!
Well, the structure is done. Windows in, electricity, flooring, loft (for storage) painted … Now it needs to get organized. What I thought was just my studio (which would give me a place for working ALL my art projects) has become our work shop/studio. IE I am relegated into choosing 1 thing to work on at any time (aside secretarial crap for him). He is doing 2 things, stained glass and minor repair of furniture. Anyway, my dreams of having a private workshop where no one hangs over my shoulder and critics everything I do (IE telling me I am doing it wrong because HE would never do it this way … ) has been shot to heck and I continue to have that annoying shadow following me EVERYWHERE!
I will be posting photos of the place soon as I get the camera out here. We still need a heater, shades and he is currently working on a peg system to hang the reeds for my baskets … Oh yeah! Did I tell you I was going to do baskets? Hope you are all having a great day!
I know, I know! Another rundown of what is happening this week. Choice #1: Working this summer: Good? I get out the house a few days a week and am paying off bills I would not have been able to do otherwise. Bad? It is effecting my health. I am getting less and less enamored with working out in the public. It is dragging me down and I am feeling depressed and stressed. Even my pills aren’t working, and I am NOT going to increase them again for all the gold in the world! They are starting to put me into a sleepwalker state when I take them (too strong). Choice#2: The basket weaving … I am going to enjoy it … Will bring in funds … Don’t have to interact with people … The jury is still out on the bad!Choice #3 The new phone: Sure it is simple … NOT! I can’t set up individual ring tones … Doesn’t have some of the neat stuff my old phone had, and it is bigger than I wanted! Good? It doesn’t ring on its own and actually works like it is suppose to.
Anyway, I just found out I have to go out a half hour earlier to be around people today due to the Park’s 85th Birthday party. So sorry about the post. Not feeling up to this, but I am doing it for a dear friend. Have a great day!
I have (maybe) a chance to go back to college and follow a dream of mine. There are two problems with this … Well, maybe more than two…. In the Dakotas or at least where I live, jobs are few and far between. Not to say there is not a need for trade skills such as nursing, electrical, construction and farm labor, but on my end the four I have listed I can not do or rather have problems with. Nursing. I use to do in home care and helping those who were in the nursing homes. Problem here? I tend to develop gastrial/intestinal problems when working with people who are ill (well, to be honest when I work around people in general). Electrical/construction. What some people find a twinge when touching anything electric, I find it hits me like a ton of bricks, and construction, my knees are bad, I don’t do well with heights and I can’t lift/carry anything over 35 lbs. 50 lbs max as long as it is a saddle or dog kibbles. Farm labor? I am a 55+ year old white female. I still fight to find anyone who will hire me because I am neither male nor Hispanic. So I choose a duel course in CAD-CAM and computer programing… I am not being told that no one is hiring in those areas where I live (big whoop! As if anyone would hire me anyway in this town) and I have to work in a big city because I have to work at the boss’s won’t hire independent contractors due to the fact they want to keep the work as their own (As if I want to keep what I do for someone else!) so I am told that this is not for me. Problem is I have no interest in any other courses, and the guy I have been working with is less than enthusiastic plus hasn’t gotten back to me due to sever health issues! I am signed up with the college, but not sure if it will happen… decisions, decisions! Not sure what to do next… Just saying.