There is no denying it, but computers are making their presence known in the modern Ag industry. Sure there are groups which won’t use technology for their farms, but most of the larger ranches and farms as well as some of the newer up and coming smaller operations are using computers to track their boundaries, soil samples, map where they plant, what they feed their stock and more. It is no wonder that companies such as Titan, Decisive farming corp. and Case IH are leaders in the development and use of the programs which help the farmer/rancher with their equipment, networking and running of their operations. What I do not understand is why those who are meant to encourage those who wish to enter into this growing field actually try and dissuade us instead. Sure, there are many who are not interested because they want to be in larger cities, but age or gender is no excuse to keep those of us who really want to be a part of this from learning or keeping us out of the loop.
I know that this comes and goes, especially for those of us who have dealt with depression and the like. This is one of those times for me. The weather is finally changing to warm (though I have heard it might get cold with possible snow showers later this week), and I have gone outside and soaked up the sun’s warmth. I feel though that I am walking in a fog, like I really am looking into a fishbowl which is my life.
I think that it may be that things are still up in the air for me and it seems that a lot of my so called friends and family are hoping it will fall through. (My mother made it slip that they blame me for loosing the house and not the circumstances surrounding it. Go figure. They won’t tell me to my face, they will just dis me and not listen to what really happened. Just like my cousin who ruined our car because he said I lied about sending my uncle the titles to the trailer and car. He never apologized when my uncle said he got them.) What they don’t realize is that I NEED this. The schooling, being away from home and family, being in another world that is not the norm for here or me. Yes, I have my uppers now, though until I get the partials in the next couple of months, I will be having a balance problem with them. I start back to work at the city museum and gift shop at the end of May, (though again I enjoy the work, I have problems with being around people) and I have still to hear about the schooling and apartment. It is a lot to think about and have hanging over head. I plan to take the math accuplacer test at the end of this month and I get my last MMR shot in a couple of weeks. I want this all to fall into place but know that it may not. If I don’t do this I feel that I will never get to know what I could have done or been.
I was so happy that the election was over. No more hatred spewed on the hearsay of others … NOT ! There is a line to be drawn in the sand, do it another way! Yes, I rant, but it is to get something off my chest, not to do a long standing grudge against a man who knows more about foreign policy and business than carrier politicians! He is enforcing laws already on the books, not sending everyone back who has stayed within the letter of the law. Those who are here illegally should either do the right thing and go through the process of becoming legal, not just saying because I am a poor little refugee that I have a right to come here without going through the proper channels. The LAWS are clear. Those who blame him for enforcing those laws and say they want to leave because he got elected and is doing the enforcing should not let the door hit them on the way out. I am sorry for this outburst, but I am getting tired of all the rhetoric which should be over and done with. Yes, you have a right to YOUR opinion but it should be an INFORMED opinion, not just spreading stuff that is what a preschooler would spread!
It seems that the men of this town are at it again. One has left his so called friends in a lurch by taking a job without discussing it first and so abandoning a steady business he was suppose to be building. And I just found out that I may have a partner I neither wanted nor needed who is going to help “keep me in my place” by dictating to me how and what I am to put in my “shop” to sell! (no “pagan” items which to them include jewelry, candles, herbs, incense etc.).
It is funny how the people I had hoped would stand by me and stand up for my rights have turned on me and are now siding with those I told I wanted nothing to do with! These self same people pulled this back around 1992-95 when the got involved with people I said I wanted nothing to do with, and they basically took our inventory, sold it all and vanished leaving us with tons of bills that they, not we, ran up! Funny how after they said they would listen and trust me, they are pulling us back into the same situation as back then, and they still won’t heed my warnings! I am wondering if they will ever learn!
It seems as this year has flown by I become more thoughtful. Though I am not sure that is the correct word at this point in time. It could be, but not sure. With all the ads on TV, internet and the like it sort of drags me down. Yes, I know there are kids in other countries who are starving, but shouldn’t we take care of our own first before sending ad to other countries. The US has sent so much money to places like Somalia, India, Africa etc. to rebuild those places three times over. But does it ever get to where it is meant to go? We now have threats of disease from the immigrants who come to our country illegally or people who visit 3 world countries and then come here. How do we stop it? Why weren’t those kids being shipped to us from Mexico either sent back or quarantined until they were proven healthy. Many of those who came over from Europe during the wars in the early 1800’s were kept on Ellis Island and checked for disease before being allowed in. THEY followed the rules yet now our LIBERAL MINORITY are allowing people in, demanding they be allowed to just be brought into this country and dumped on those who really can’t afford this influx of new people. YES, I agree they need help, but we have our own problems and those diseases which we had eradicated, are now coming back with a vengeance! Are we to pay the price for those who do not follow the rules? We need to close our boarders and make sure those coming in have a clean bill of health AND are coming in LEGALLY. I heard a priest once applaud an illegal for coming into our country underneath the frame of a truck, saying this kid had a right to be here. I do not agree. If he did it legally instead of cutting the line, the job he took would have gone to someone HERE who needed the work. People keep telling me that Americans are lazy bums and don’t want to work. I beg to differ. I am an American. I WANT to work yet every place I have applied over my life has been taken from me by OUR system and been given to those who are migrant workers, and illegals. I am told I can not do the work on a farm because I am not Mexican, male nor a teenager. YET, I am able (at age 55) to climb up on a roof, tear off the old roofing and paper in two days and replace it in two. With one person helping. ANOTHER WOMAN! And NEITHER of us are immigrants, Mexicans nor male. So tell me. What is it with the noisy idiots who scream we need illegals to work because Americans won’t? Open your eyes people! You are being fed crap and you are believing it, and because of it our country and the people here are having our lives put in danger. DO THE RESEARCH instead of believing those who say what I say is wrong. I WANT you to find the truth and start thinking for yourselves and being led to destruction by lies from the moral MINORITY!
Not sure why they call it such. They call it a holiday when people take a vacation before school starts, but it isn’t. There are many of us who work year round such as farmers and ranchers. If you gave gardens, trees, plants and animals you can’t just drop everything and leave for the day. These need 24/7 care. Those of us who do not or rather can not take the day off work on this day so those who run “Brick and Mortar” businesses such as the GOVERNMENT and BANKS, POST OFFICES and more CAN take the day off. So in the evening I will drink a toast to all of us who actually do work now and anymore. May we truly understand that it the labor of folks who could care less about “holidays” and continue to watch over this country and keep trying to keep America what it was meant to be … FREE.
I asked a question on Y/A this last week, (And commented on several articles things that I have read which leaned heavily towards liberal ideals) and immediately got lambasted and told I was a follower of Rush and Fox News. Problem is, they are listening to people who presume everyone watches TV or gets the Rush show on Radio. I have not had TV since 2005 and where I have been living (since 2007) The only RADIO stations I get are PBS (VERY LIBERAL) and Country western! Neither of which I turn on until between 6PM and 8AM when it is Jazz, 70’s music and BBC). The thing is I use my eyes, ears and brain to process my experiences and research THEN I decide what I believe or not, I do not rely on media of ANY kind to decide what I believe in. I would hope those who tell me off for my beliefs would do the same, but it seems that their answers are fabricated by what media is telling them rather than thinking for themselves.
I just got a rude awakening today. We are suppose to be able to CHOOSE what we want and hopefully get it. Today I found out this is not the case, ESPECIALLY on the internet. I happen to hate most of the homepages offered on the net. Yahoo, Google, MSN all tend to show news, trending crap and other things I don’t want nor am interested in. I USE to like AVAST because it let me CHOOSE my home page. For the last few days, however, it is been telling me I had to chance my home page because it is considered a virus! A home page I have used the last three years! Finally I had no choice and (since my eyesight is having problems even with my glasses I can’t see clearly) I chose MSN THINKING I could reinstate my home page. WRONG! I can no longer change my home page now. I HATE IT! All three I listed are now (if you choose them or not) PERMANENT! I want my home page back! I know I am ranting, but between that and having to make my passwords more complicated everyday, I am having real issues of government control, so-called “big brother” and anyone else who interferes in my choices in life of which they have no business in keeping me from!
Had been on F B today. Someone posted a photo which I think I saw (I believe) on here and people were talking with compassion about someone on line. Some guy touted that it was was not compassion if you stated it on like. I countered and asked for his definition of the word stating that for many this IS their only link to their family and friends. The guy spouted that his “powerful magic fingers” deleted us. The question is still up there and he provided himself to be a coward, braggart and liar. It is sad really that people will really be that way and use technology to spread hatred, lies and stupidity, hiding behind those “powerful magic fingers” which they seem so proud of but are so weak as they are.
There are days that no matter what I say or do it is called wrong and I am called “stupid” and today was no exception. Every time I opened my mouth the words were wrong or it was someone else talking. It is times like this when I feel that I am slipping away and becoming an almost “Steadford wife” and loosing my own identity. The person in question calls me “Stupid” because he doesn’t hear me and says “If only you had stated that you did it earlier I would not get upset” even though I HAD said it and he HADN’T paid attention to what I was saying! I think he does it so he CAN call me stupid and try to make me into something I am not.