I have decided … well, sort of …

This morning I made a decision, one I kind of made last night, that no matter who doesn’t like it, I am going to live my life. Not on the terms of others who think I am kind of nuts, nor of those who think I am well and am putting up a fake front.  I know my body and what I can’t take when it comes to medication and I know that I don’t like my life spread around for all to take in. I am not a people person, of that I really know. Sure I am loving and caring, but to that industry I can not go. So I have decided that a hermit’s life if for me (at least 300 days of the year) so I can work the way I want, with no more controlling people or piers.

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Hot and sticky today

I know it says 91 today, but it feels more like 120! There is a touch of humidity in the air which lends to some stick clothes and uncomfortable situations when it comes to being out and about. The problem is that it is suppose to be getting hotter into the weekend and on into next week. Just wish I weren’t working in a dreary cave like  building tomorrow … sure it is cooler in there, but the place is dark and depressing! Oh for some greenery and water features to help not only cool one down but which lends a wee bit of calm into the mixture! But I guess when ones lives on the prairie one should expect that of ones environment.

Choices good and bad (well, not TOO bad!).

I know, I know! Another rundown of what is happening this week.  Choice #1: Working this summer: Good? I get out the house a few days a week and am paying off bills I would not have been able to do otherwise. Bad? It is effecting my health. I am getting less and less enamored with working out in the public.  It is dragging me down and I am feeling depressed and stressed. Even my pills aren’t working, and I am NOT going to increase them again for all the gold in the world! They are starting to put me into a sleepwalker state when I take them (too strong).  Choice#2: The basket weaving … I am going to enjoy it … Will bring in funds … Don’t have to interact with people … The jury is still out on the bad!Choice #3 The new phone: Sure it is simple … NOT! I can’t set up individual ring tones … Doesn’t have some of the neat stuff my old phone had, and it is bigger than I wanted! Good? It doesn’t ring on its own and actually works like it is suppose to.

Anyway, I just found out I have to go out a half hour earlier to be around people today due to the Park’s 85th Birthday party. So sorry about the post. Not feeling up to this, but I am doing it for a dear friend. Have a great day!

For fun …

Those of you who have a Kindle should relate to this ….   I was looking for something fun to use on my Kindle when I take bus rides to the bigger cities (usually between 1 – 3 hours depending on where we go.) and I ran across a tarot app and a runes app. Both are free for the basics. I ran 3 readings on myself on two separate days. Just a three card/rune set up. No particular question, just a general all around reading to see what happened. All six told me that I was having conflicts, and things holding me back. They were right on the mark that I have been having doubts and questions about my choice continue working my summer job. I mean I don’t make much yet when I start working my husband’s medical gets cut. Even with the job we can’t afford the $175 ever two weeks for his puffer, so instead of getting ahead, it shoots us backwards to where I am further behind on paying off debt and such. So I made up my mind to change a few things.

1. I won’t be working next year at the park. Sure it is only 2 – 3 days a week and gets me out of the house, but it isn’t worth it.

2. I am not doing the job rehab thing. Sure it would be nice to get out of the house and actually earn some spending money, but lets face it. Those programs will not take someone in their late 50’s early 60’s seriously when it comes to learning a new trade or upgrading old skills! PLUS I can’t be working while I am training nor would I be making any money!

3. I will go back to my crafts and choose one (or two) that I can perfect at home and start selling over the internet and at shows in larger cities.  My problem is which to settle on so I won’t get bored with just the one (or two) things!

After coming to this conclusion, I did another reading on both the cards and runes. Guess what it said! Basically that with patience and once I narrow my choices, I am on the right path and that I need to focus on that choice! How is that for a just for fun reading! Hope you all have a great week!

When did this become a board to air hatred?

I was so happy that the election was over. No more hatred spewed on the hearsay of others … NOT There is a line to be drawn in the sand, do it another way!  Yes, I rant, but it is to get something off my chest, not to do a long standing grudge against a man who knows more about foreign policy and business than carrier politicians!  He is enforcing laws already on the books, not sending everyone back who has stayed within the letter of the law.  Those who are here illegally should either do the right thing and go through the process of becoming legal, not just saying because I am a poor little refugee that I have a right to come here without going through the proper channels.  The LAWS are clear. Those who blame him for enforcing those laws and say they want to leave because he got elected and is doing the enforcing should not let the door hit them on the way out.  I am sorry for this outburst, but I am getting tired of all the rhetoric which should be over and done with. Yes, you have a right to YOUR opinion but it should be an INFORMED opinion, not just spreading stuff that is what a preschooler would spread!

School daze …

I have (maybe) a chance to go back to college and follow a dream of mine.  There are two problems with this … Well, maybe more than two….  In the Dakotas or at least where I live, jobs are few and far between. Not to say there is not a need for trade skills such as nursing, electrical, construction and farm labor, but on my end the four I have listed I can not do or rather have problems with.  Nursing. I use to do in home care and helping those who were in the nursing homes. Problem here?  I tend to develop gastrial/intestinal problems when working with people who are ill (well, to be honest when I work around people in general). Electrical/construction. What some people find a twinge when touching anything electric, I find it hits me like a ton of bricks, and construction, my knees are bad, I don’t do well with heights and I can’t lift/carry anything over 35 lbs. 50 lbs max as long as it is a saddle or dog kibbles.  Farm labor? I am a 55+ year old white female. I still fight to find anyone who will hire me because I am neither male nor Hispanic.  So I choose a duel course in CAD-CAM and computer programing…  I am not being told that no one is hiring in those areas where I live (big whoop! As if anyone would hire me anyway in this town) and I have to work in a big city because I have to work at the boss’s won’t hire independent contractors due to the fact they want to keep the work as their own (As if I want to keep what I do for someone else!) so I am told that this is not for me. Problem is I have no interest in any other courses, and the guy I have been working with is less than enthusiastic plus hasn’t gotten back to me due to sever health issues!  I am signed up with the college, but not sure if it will happen… decisions, decisions! Not sure what to do next… Just saying.

Prattle about a fear that is actually unfounded…

I had hoped that after the election the political crap would have subsided.  Still the media and many people who believe the prattle and rumors still are trying to undo a legal vote and the person who actually has experience with foreign trade and politics. People are saying that Trump is inapt and doesn’t know what he is doing, yet his does this for a living.  Those who say he is a woman hater, a bigot and a danger to the US are basing this on a scripted Reality show and rumors who never wanted him in there. I am sorry. He is neither a demon nor a thug but a man who, if given the chance, can get the US out of the horrors that we are headed towards.  He is not the problem, it is the arrogance of those who don’t want us to be great that has become our downfall. I know my opinion is not popular, but I still believe that it it must be said and those who don’t believe, well … That is their prerogative isn’t it? Just do your selves a favor and actually research this instead of taking the media’s word for it. This is not the end of the world, but the beginning of new possibilities.  Oh yes, and for all who are whining about this and threatening to leave because Trump is president, just remember that if we go to war it is the last President who started it, not Trump. And don’t let the door hit you on your way out.  I put up with Obama and his ilk, now I will see what this man has to offer. I will not whine because someone I didn’t vote for lost … like you are doing..