End of an age beginning of another?

As this year draws to a close, I wonder if we will learn from our past misdirections and misdeeds then grow with it, or are we going to ignore everything and continue on the course which some idiot set for us. WE are the writers of our destiny. THAT is what free will is all about. We can either go down by doing nothing or choose to change ourselves, the world. I am not saying that “fate” or “destiny” doesn’t exist. In some areas it does. It is there to help us grow, but it is OUR CHOICES which make all the difference in the world. So as the bell tones midnight on the last day of December, remember, it is up to us to either make this world worse or better.  Happy New Years!

Made it through …. What a thing to say!

With a heavy sigh I have to utter these horrifying words “Well, I made it through Christmas!” Now don’t get me wrong, I love the season winter with Yule, Christmas, decorations, music and snow. The problem is that this year I couldn’t get it together! Everything fell a bit flat. I wanted to bake, looked at the stove and felt like heaving! THIS IS NOT ME! I tell myself and try to force the issue. Problem is that in a way, it was me. I don’t know if it was a lack of a support system, my son not even caring to help by decorating our house and his grandmas. Maybe it was the fact that my husband was miserable driving 200+ miles a day just to pay off bills. I just can’t seem to figure it out! I did (finally) get my birthday tree and decorated it. I even decorated the huge window in white cascading icicle lights and LED bulbs.

Birthday tree Simple fan decor Head of the bed Bedroom Door 1 Bedroom door 2 Stairway to hev... I mean bedroom Birthday tree view 2

Then Hubster asked for me to decorate the bedroom. Which I did and he “SEEMED” to really appreciate it. Then there were the cards. I was late getting those out as well! I felt like I was drowning in the season rather than enjoying it.

Now we hope for the fresh, new year!

Ho ~ Ho ~ Humbug!

Despite my best efforts I can’t get into the spirit of things. I seemed to help my husband and friends, but for me? No way! I feel rushed, stretched, exhausted and down right moody. For me this year it is just another day. I do have many gifts bought and been playing the music and DVD’s of the season, but even they have fallen flat. My cards won’t be sent out til after Christmas and my baking also won’t be done til then. I am putting on a “happy” face for the sake of my family and friends. Just wish this year it didn’t feel so … not worth the effort!

Hectic yet fulfilling!

As usual I find myself falling behind with everyone wanting me to do one thing or the other then changing their minds when I come to help (eye roll please … ) Still, when it is all said and done and the holidays draw to a close I shall miss them. The beautiful displays of the creche, lights, ornaments … music (even if it IS Christian must, it is still beautiful) the food and the snow (yes, I am a snow freak. I love it even though I was born and raised in California! I hate the desert! WAY TOO HOT!) So I will continue to work on the cards and hope to send them out Friday at the latest, finish the baking and wrapping then plop down on the bed or in the hot bath and sip sangria in hopes I will calm down enough to enjoy the rest of the season! CHEERS!

What is it with people who want to take over???

I have probably have posted something like this before, but it is becoming a problem again. I want to start something so I can make money. I buy product. I get ready to put things together, and WHAM! I get “You need to do it this way!” “You can’t sell this, no one will buy it!” “You are wasting MY money.” and the ever popular “You procrastinate! Your projects will never get off the ground!”

I don’t mind advice, as a matter of fact I like “constructive” criticism. But when someone who doesn’t have an ounce of craft experience nor has taking the art classes I have taken, then says he knows better how to do what I enjoyed doing (until he stuck his nose into it) then I want to pull out my hair and scream to the top of my lungs. As it is (an example) I decide I want to make a few dollars selling cookies, breads and muffins. His thought? I should open a bakery and sell fancy pastries. I want to paint (whimsical/abstract) His thoughts? I should be painting JUST flowers, and slow down on what I am doing or I will “RUIN” it. I decide to try my hand a wood burning… You need to do heraldry, etc. Something which should relax me is now suppose to be this super project! I can’t win!

Holiday rush!

It isn’t the gifts, the cards, the material things which make the season what it is. Actually in a way that is only part of it. But the main thing is family. Spending time with friends and family, decorating, making home and hearth warm and inviting. Even baking brings people together. Then you have the commercial side of it. Buy, buy, buy! The commercials want us to spend money on things, which really don’t mean anything but to the bottom-line-end-of-the-year-sales-quota! We are encouraged from before summer ends, to open and our pocket books to buy cars, computers, complicated phones and overpriced clothes, jewelry and games. If we don’t we are considered to be “depriving our kids” what makes them popular!

We are once again put into the position of having to weigh out what society tells us we should be as opposed to what we actually should be. I shutter every time a car commercial, Smart-phone commercial, etc, comes onto the computer and says “BUY THIS OR YOU AREN’T American!” You order things on line, then find out they are not from America but coming out of China (So sorry but this you won’t get from 1-2 months from now)! So not only are you not getting quality but shamed because you kid/friend/family member won’t get it under their tree on time! Yeah. Merry Christmas! I have paired things down to baked goods, home made crafty items and the occasional DVD/Book/what-have-you which I can order and get before Nov. and KNOW it is quality. So to all of you who go to the so-called Black Friday/Monday sales, and rush out to buy stuff they no longer have in stock. Remember, it is the thought, which counts, not how much you spend, and making something means so much more because of the effort you put into it!

Christmas ormament decor